Okay, so I guess I've gotta expand upon that, don't I? I'm just fucking sick and tired of everyone and everything and this whole I don't know what, that we're participating in. At the moment, for the most part, I feel like I just wanna get off. I don't want to realise my mortality or some such Plathian gesture but the longer that "life" goes on the more it's not really working for me.
And now to totally contradict myself, in some ways this thing is working better than ever. There are times recently when I've experienced a clarity that I've never achieved before in my life and an inner "peace"? that is becoming a more frequent visitor. Yet I still so often feel a dissatisfaction and a constriction within the confines of my existence.
So, I guess I've gotta look at the upside, such as it is, right?
"When your sense of self is no longer tied to thought, is no longer conceptual, there is a depth of feeling, of sensing, of compassion, of loving, that was not there when you were trapped in mental concepts. You are that depth."
- Eckhart Tolle
- Eckhart Tolle
